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The 2018 No-Show Gala is tomorrow!

It’s true: the Writers’ Room’s 2018 fundraiser will close tomorrow night with a festive, detective-saturated non-event featuring our founding patron, the late Robert B. Parker, and his famous shamus Spenser. The concept of a no-show gala is weird, but simple: your purchase of a ticket or a whole table translates into a donation, while we guarantee that there is no actual event for you to dress up for. No tuxedo! No stiletto heels! No rubber chicken and watered-down drinks, and no boring speeches! We will, though, post some exclusive Parker-related extras on our website on the night of Friday the 10th. If you really want to pull out all the stops, put on your favorite PJs and follow us on social media tomorrow night for live coverage of this imaginary event. Please join in the fun and support our fellowship program for writers of limited means by going to wrob2018.eventbrite.com. We will love you forever, and so will Spenser.

The 2018 No-Show Gala is tomorrow!

It’s true: the Writers’ Room’s 2018 fundraiser will close tomorrow night with a festive, detective-saturated non-event featuring our founding patron, the late Robert B. Parker, and his famous shamus Spenser. The concept of a no-show gala is weird, but simple: your purchase of a ticket or a whole table translates into a donation, while we guarantee that there is no actual event for you to dress up for. No tuxedo! No stiletto heels! No rubber chicken and watered-down drinks, and no boring speeches! We will, though, post some exclusive Parker-related extras on our website on the night of Friday the 10th. If you really want to pull out all the stops, put on your favorite PJs and follow us on social media tomorrow night for live coverage of this imaginary event. Please join in the fun and support our fellowship program for writers of limited means by going to wrob2018.eventbrite.com. We will love you forever, and so will Spenser.

Tips for the Traveling Writer

I’ve been away from the Room the last couple of weeks, traveling for my honeymoon. As we move from place to place, I try to steal moments for my writing. It’s not often that I get to visit new cities for pleasure instead of my freelance work. If I’m traveling for a predetermined story or assignment, my mind is already hyper-focused on the task at hand, leaving me with little capacity for additional free thought or experiencing my surroundings organically.

It’s been great so far. While I miss the comfort and familiar friendly faces of the Writers’ Room, I’m also appreciating the unique quality of writing on the road in the midst of the unfamiliar. As such, I thought I’d share a few of my tips for writing while traveling, whether you’re on the road for pleasure or work. Some of these might be obvious, but others were new to me.

 

Slow down. Fight the tourist’s pace.

Fight the urge to rush through exhibits, experiences, and tourist attractions. Try to steal a corner atop the church tower you just waited 3 hours to climb up. If you’re alone, all the better. I’ve found places to tuck myself away on top of Notre-Dame Cathedral and inside Florence’s Duomo. The spots are there, you just need to look. Make sure you’re not close to the edge of the roof! Once you’ve found your spot, jot down a few notes or take a moment of reflection to write in the moment.

 

Speed up. Embrace the city’s pace.

Okay, so you can’t always slow down—especially in busy cities—but there’s something to be gained from running with the locals and embracing their pace (sometimes that pace can also be very, very slow!) Do what they do. Become invisible. Pretend you live there. Embrace the same frenzied chaos in your writing, if only just for a moment to break you out of a block.

 

Find alone time.

This is easy if you’re a solo traveler, and I’ve most often written while traveling alone, but this is not always possible (like my honeymoon!) Take breaks from your travel partners—an afternoon or meet up for dinner. Take your own path at your own pace at a museum and meet up later, as mentioned above. Don’t be forced to rush your experiences or wait on others to move on. If you have kids with you, take moments when and where you can—rise early for a solo coffee, trade off time with a partner, or organize an activity that fully engages each family member on an individual level, like an audio tour or family friendly group class. It won’t be easy, but if you can manage even a few minutes of writing here and there, it’s well worth it.

 

Forget about home.

Stay in the moment, and don’t worry about people and things at home when possible. They will be there when you get back, renewed and refreshed. Don’t experience your trip at a fraction of your own consciousness.

 

Remember home.

Okay, so you can’t fully forget home, but you can take moments to reflect on your life and relationships as a whole. Journaling is great for this. Writing without the distraction of relationships, commitments, or the daily grind is a liberating experience. It can also help you see those relationships and commitments with a unique clarity that is impossible to attain when you’re in the thick of it. It’s not uncommon for someone to make a major life decision  about life back home when traveling in a new place. I’ve also found it particularly helpful in writing memoir, essays, and generating new ideas.

 

Take photos, not just for fun.

You’re traveling and probably taking photos for your memories or budding hobby. But you should also utilize photos as a form of note-taking. Can’t spare a minute to jot down some notes about the amazing site you just visited? Take photos of the scenery and its details for your records. Prioritize documenting those sensory details that can evade you later over the nuts and bolts facts that can be verified during your fact-checking phase. Also, try recording yourself on your phone if you don’t feel like snapping photos.

 

Travel light.

This one seems obvious, but the less physically encumbered you are, the more liberated in thought you can become. Carry-ons are your friend. So are tiny notebooks! I have a shelf of tiny filled notebooks from all of my travels.

 

Take trains.

You can write anywhere—train, plane, automobile (assuming you’re not actively driving)— but not all modes of transportation are equally conducive to writing. Between the comfort, spacing, natural light, and historic tradition of writers writing on trains, rail travel matches the ebb and flow of the writer’s pace wonderfully (check out Amtrak’s Writer’s Residency!)

 

Talk to strangers.

You’re not truly experiencing an inhabited place if you avoid speaking to actual people. Sure, there may be language barriers, but it’s amazing how far you can get with a few basic, kind words and human intuition. Also, selfishly, you miss out on a whole area of writing inspiration—spoken words, snippets of conversations—if you’re not tuned into other people and the art of interaction.

2018 Writers’ Room Fellow Gabriella Gage

What Kind of Fiction IS This?

The following is the reprise of a conversation between myself and my sister-in-law. Joanna resides in Portland, OR, home of Powell’s Books. I’ve transplanted to and branched out in Boston, MA, which claims the first free public library in the U.S. (Internet says: Boston’s the second behind NH. Sorry, Boston.) It’s no surprise to anyone who knows us that we’ve both engaged in book slinging. Joanna put in many years as a bookseller and, in high school, I was employed at my local library. I also once kept a blog devoted to visiting libraries.

In the past month, I completed revisions on a 60k+ word novel intended for young readers and Joanna has, on hire, proofread those very same 60k+ words back when they were more like 70k+. There’re other crossovers in our combined reading Venn diagram but, more importantly for this discussion, we represent a breadth of experiences with, in, and around the world of reading/writing/BOOKS.

 

Phoebe-in-Boston

Recently, I applied for an opportunity for free coaching for new and emerging writers and the application required that I list three works I’ve read, similar to my manuscript. Off to Goodreads.com I went.

Reading through my digital shelves, the first thing I noticed is in the past decade I only rarely read novels featuring characters similar to the young people in my manuscript, with the obvious exception of graphic novels.

Second, the (non-graphic) novels I read with characters age 12 or so are stylistically and topically, very, very different from my work. Contemplating this, I wondered: has there been a shift in the market? Via casual perusal, most of what I came across was: humor/boys-being-wacky or girls-being-plucky; recovering from the death of parent/custodial adult or similar emotional orphaning; earnest identity crisis, and discovering latent, magic powers. This list admittedly excludes outdoor-adventure, sports, or kiss-your-cheek romance, which I didn’t read as a pre-teen, teen, or young adult, and certainly don’t read now.

Searching online and off, I asked myself: has the market maybe shrunk? Converted into something I no longer recognize? Or perhaps I’m searching the wrong places?

The books I remember from being a 12-year-old, occasional Judy Blume-reader who was more attuned to Diana Wynne Jones and early-days Jacqueline Woodson (though I was quietly hooked on Tolkien, dry, pastoral Westerns, and true-life hospital dramas,) appear to have migrated up to YA, or otherwise flowered into a new crop of verse-books, employing poetry for the heavy lifting.

All that’s fine. Sure, things change, but who’re my novel’s play-cousins? In these days, these markets, where does my manuscript fit? Just what kind of fiction IS this?  

Joanna-in-Portland

Last night I visited a small independent bookstore for a reading and found myself browsing the Young Readers section, mentally preparing for this conversation-in-writing.  

I wondered, not for the first time, if book stores, especially the indie ones, are free to simply categorize their books depending on the amount of shelf space they are working with, and/or their label-making capabilities.   

At the shop last night, a sign reading Young Readers was displayed high above a cozy nook lined with bookshelves and a large table piled with titles. This section included picture books as well as fairly hefty-looking middle grade books. Close by was a large (-ish) area dedicated to Young Adult novels. I pulled a couple off the shelf at random and read the blurbs on the back covers: the first expressed something along the lines of playing guitar till one’s fingers bleed to distract from the pain of unrequited love, and another featuring a young woman running across the country due to trauma in her past (the nature of the trauma remained unclear.)

What was interesting was that neither one of them read as particularly young adult to me. If Young Adult comes to mean increasingly Adult, where does a book that feels older than Middle Grade, but highlights characters who are undoubtedly young, fit in?

What kind of fiction is it?  

I thought Phoebe’s manuscript was sort of similar to Judy Blume’s Starring Sally J. Freedman as Herself, (which, by the way, ranges from being called “young adult”, “young readers,” or “kids” by a random sampling of three different major websites), or Just as Long as We’re Together, but with more of a boy vibe, like Fast Sam, Cool Clyde and Stuff, by Walter Dean Myers.  Pre-teen characters who are faced with having to suss out bigger problems with depth beyond their years (because, life) but who are equally, if not more, focused on their friendship dynamics and school and the beginnings of romantic feelings (because, kids). A mash-up, perhaps, between the above-mentioned, plus Jacqueline Woodson and a little John Green: authors who write young characters, drenched in reality, with a clear intention and deference for their young audience, while not sacrificing the earnestness and innocence that separates these books from those actually written for adults.  

Kids today are young adults in some ways before the previous generations were, in that information is accessible to them about everything they can Google with their hot little hands. They seem to look and think more like adults too. Furthermore, fashion, music, technology, etc., all cater towards the younger consumer. What defines young adulthood changes, and the literature evolves along with it. Author Michael Cart, in an article I found on Smithsonian.com, points out that it wasn’t until the mid-1940s that librarians first began calling teenagers “young adults,” and 1970 that “serious young adult literature was recognized.”

There was no category for young adult literature until American youth culture manifested itself, according to Cart. And then of course, the youths being described as “young adults” surely only represented a small portion of the population. Surely, “young adults” are now worlds away from what they were when that term was coined; shouldn’t the categorization evolve as well? Also, since young adult literature and adult literature are often meant to blend or “crossover” as many titles do today, shouldn’t there be as many literary subsections for the younger population as well?

Finally, how useful are these classifications anyway? Certainly they are necessary when it comes down to just plain organization. The difference between bookstores and libraries involves making books sell-able to the right market versus making books available to the right audience. Obviously both are important when you are trying to get your book published, but shouldn’t an author have some say in where their creation ends up?  

The truth is, in my experience as a bookseller, not to mention my experience of being a young person–kids are gonna read what they wanna read, no matter what label you put on it. But what do they want? I think they want what most of us want: to be taken seriously, not be talked down to, to be entertained, and to have options.  Some kids want sci-fi/fantasy, some want romance, some want poetry, some want to read about coming of age in a bleak, dystopian distant future and many want to read about kids living in a town or school that could be their own, with characters they could see themselves hanging out with.

By the way, they want what they can’t relate to, too! For example, I couldn’t have a horse, but didn’t I long for one? So I devoured books about horses and the kids who were lucky enough to be around them. And for some reason there was an abundance of books available to me about girls with debilitating disease, so I read them as well.  My dad urged me to try Don Quixote, which I rejected because I wanted to read the 1,842nd installment of The Baby-Sitter’s Club.

 

Phoebe-in-Boston

I totally hear Joanna about those horse books.

I fell into them as well. They were fun. They were plentiful, which speaks to the importance of what’s available. Dozens of ponies trotting around a Virginian island whose name I still can’t quite pronounce, sure! As a kid I read those stories ‘til the cows (horses) came home but books featuring African American or Asian American or Latinx or Indigenous and First Nations kids that were not also bittersweet encapsulations of The Desperate, Dignified Struggle, much less so.

It might seem as though this blog post is a #representationmatters sneak-attack but, in truth, the two ideas intersect. Whatever the myriad pressures on publishers, booksellers, and libraries to buy narrative works and get them into the hands of their intended audiences, a similar weight bows the shoulders and hearts of writers like myself because, on one hand, I represent risk related to my color and gender, and the other, my work could be seen as a whole different risk – a conventional-market misfit.

What kind of fiction IS it, I can’t for sure say. Nowadays, I tell folks: my protagonist is 12-years-old and I let conversations spool out from there, as unique, meandering, and curious as kid-me wandering the library stacks with my fingertips bump-bump-bumping along book spines.

 

THANKS

Gracias especiales to my good-buddy-sister Joanna: poet/crafter/thinker/reader/explorer. You can find her online at:  https://dreamyscrape.wordpress.com/

 

– Phoebe Sinclair, 2018 WROB Ivan Gold Fellow

Reflecting on Baldwin

“To accept one’s past– one’s history– is not the same thing as drowning in it; it is learning how to use it.” – James Baldwin, “The Fire Next Time” (pg. 81)

This past weekend I went to a flea market in my neighborhood. It was a rare moment for me to do something where I’m just floating among vendors, observing, watching and just being. It was, for me, a rare moment of active stillness in the presence of my chaotic life. When I say “chaotic” I mean it in the sense that I am rarely present in my own life. This chaos was mirrored back to me when I stopped at a witch vendor who did a Tarot reading for me. The darkness was prominent in all three of the cards they pulled. What is this chaos? On the surface, the chaos is working a full-time job and attending an MFA Creative Writing program full-time. Beneath that surface, it is relying on the stability of a full-time job to survive, save and live in a city. Slightly beneath that, it is the tension between loving writing and not knowing how to do it without also providing for myself. And deeper? Well, it is the fear of not working insane amounts to sustain myself. Does this sound privileged, insane and irrelevant to this annotation? Probably yes, but perhaps I can go a bit deeper.

I am not only a writer, I am a writer who is also the oldest child of four, from a parent who never worked because she lived with schizophrenia that inhibited her ability to function in the world we live in. My life has been shaped into being a responsible adult since being a child, yet I have a heart of an artist with the desire to freely create without being held down by the matters of the world. The irony here is that I write about my childhood, the traumas I’ve faced, about the relationship I have with my mother and her schizophrenia. I also write about my father and his alcoholism and how it shaped my life. These are the stories I find important, because I know I am not the only one with this experience. I know that somehow sharing these will help the healing, progression and life of someone else. Sometimes this writing isn’t pretty or lyrical, sometimes it is ugly in all its rawness. I try to stay true to how my writing shows up with the intention that its sparseness will blossom in the life of a reader far away from me and my knowing.

I have been reading about the term “duende.” When I think of duende, I think of an artist who has lived. It may not be a long amount of living, but perhaps it’s an experience that is so earth shattering it must be shared. That sharing is what inspires a fervor in those viewing, reading or listening. While reading Baldwin, I am reminded of how he invoked such a fervor in those who read him, listened to him or met him. It was his awareness of the world around him that, one could say, is duende. It’s the mysterious result of the combination of trauma, hope, resilience, understanding and love. I understood Baldwin when he wrote about using the past and not drowning in it. When I think of my writing practice and what I write about, I am constantly balancing the ability to float above the immense reality of the life I am writing about. It is balancing the freedom and privilege to tell a story with the pain of the story and the life I write from. When I think of myself as a writer, I think I must embody not only a love for the act of writing, and all it’s difficulties, but of the story and people that have inspired me to write. This isn’t always easy considering the tough nature of those relationships. Yet, Baldwin talks of love. He talks of the ability to not drown. What does this mean to me as a writer? What can I learn? Perhaps it’s the ability to enter the vortex where the difficulty and necessity of love is present, where the spirit of duende sits, waiting to rear its head in the art that comes from the hard work of loving.

– 2018 WROB Gish Jen Fellow,  Tatiana M.R. Johnson

Fable is the Form That Lets Us Look But Not Touch

Presently, fairy tales and fable are not just having a moment, as they tend to do from time to time, but an especially rich and deep one. For familiar tales, at least in my not-scholarly, fully-anecdotal experience, it seems like the satires and inversions of their tropes have become reintegrated into the popular conception of some stories, which is an exciting terrain where wholly fresh, subversive, and tertiary explorations crack through.

I read a fascinating and very funny interview with Daniel Ortberg at Ignotae where they discuss, in part, Ortberg’s process both retelling and combining familiar stories, and letting everything from Bible stories to popular children’s literature into the mix. And I thought, wait, the brief, bloodthirsty versions of everything from The Velveteen Rabbit to Jacob wrestling with God in Ortberg’s work is just such a different meaning of “retelling” than, say, the way Theodora Goss beautifully retells seminal Gothic literature by giving its female characters existence and agency through long-form narrative.

So here is some terminology that I absolutely just made up while thinking about this blog post:

  1. A retelling is a version which complicates the flatness or brevity of the original tale, in the case of fairy tales, essentially re-making the story as literary fantasy with character motivations, interiority, details, a larger world.
  2. A revisioning may be a new version of a known or existing tale, including a fusion of multiple tales, but in the case of fairy tales, maintains the signature formal traits of the original, such as lots of telling and psychological distance, regardless of whether it is used to sincere or satirical ends.

I have no idea if this distinction will prove useful for anyone else but there you go. A lot of very smart people have already defined the fairy tale better than I could. If you’ve never read it, Kate Bernheimer’s essay, “Fairy Tale is Form, Form is Fairy Tale” it is essential reading for any writer interested in the contemporary genre.

Then, here is a fascinating interview with Aimee Bender by Stephanie Palumbo at The Believer about developing a general ed undergraduate syllabus on fairy tales, which draws and elaborates on Bernheimer’s essay. Some highlights:

SP: I read a Kate Bernheimer essay about the four elements of fairy tales: flatness, abstraction, intuitive logic, and normalized magic. It’s interesting that writers are often told to avoid flatness, but it can be incredibly compelling.

AB: We get used to thinking there are these certain rules about fiction. But in fact, fairy tales came first. What flatness does is make the characters two-dimensional—we don’t get depth from their internal lives. But what the character goes through is different than in a realistic novel. Here you piece the story together and learn about the characters’ motivations through the action.

Flatness might mark the fairy tale apart from the psychological interiority of literary fiction in general, but I think I would add that there are formal traits that mark the fairy tale apart from the genre fantasy and science fiction. I have tried to articulate what I like about fairy tales before, and I think there is a characteristic flatness to the exterior, as well:

There are speculative stories in which it’s necessary to develop a system or an explanation, even just a suggestion of a larger world, in order to suspend disbelief. In a fairy tale, the teller and their listener decide to care very much about knowing nothing and transform flaws into features in the pursuit of a different logic with different ends.

This may be part of why it is also a flourishing time for the new fairy tale and fable, especially in the short form. A lot can be left unsaid to conclude entirely in the reader’s mind, even the tone. This approach is confrontational and challenging, yet it can also engage and extend point of view on a level more intuitive than intellectual. Kit Haggard recently wrote an awesome article in The Outline about “How a queer fabulism came to dominate contemporary women’s writing” that seems relevant to this confrontational-approach-to-extending-point-of-view thing I’m circling.

Which reminds me: it is commonly held that “empathy” in storytelling–that cumulative residue supposedly created through psychological realism and interiority–is the key to understanding differences and resolving conflict, but in many of my own experiences supposedly on the “receiving end” of empathy, I’ve found that is a sort of trap. I wonder if a lot of the other writers might feel the same way, and if fabulism and fairy tale is one way to escape the trap. Nate Brown, the editor of American Short Fiction, said something about this in a recent article about submitting short stories:

Empathy—the imaginative capacity to be sensitive to another’s experience and even to experience thoughts and feelings vicariously—may not be enough when it comes to creating round characters. Something more is demanded of artists than merely the exercise of our imaginations. Empathy requires some effort, sure, but love—complicated, fraught, enrapturing, difficult, bizarre love—requires tremendous work. Think of how hard and how necessary it is to love through hardship and pain and how critical it is to be loved and to be able to love in return. Without empathy (not receiving it and not being able to engage in it), my life would be unimaginably diminished, but without love, my life would be over.

While there is no stylistic limit to achieving the feeling of love in narrative, I wonder if part of the appeal of flatness, and thus new and revisited fable and fairy tale, is how it sets aside one kind of elaborate and exhausting work–the work of establishing being lovable on the part of the writer–and asserts something else instead, tells the reader: no I will not “show” you, this is how it is, this is how it goes, this is who and what the story is about whether you get it or don’t. A difficult or marginalized point of view extended by fairy tale form puts forward a raw truth but maintains its mystery, not easily commodified into a performance of confessed trauma or tidy inspiration. It says: who are you to ask for relatability, likability? It says: come to the place where all the usual rules break down and touch something that will ultimately slither away from you, because you need to witness it and know it but you can’t have it, and you don’t get to keep it.

2019 Fellowship Applications Are Open

We are officially open to applications for our next season of fellowships! Tell your writer friends!

Awards are based upon the quality of the submitted writing sample, the project description, and the statement of need. Fellowships are available to writers at any stage in their career, published or unpublished, grad student, developing writer, or professional, so long as the writer is serious about their craft.

The Fellowships are awarded for any genre or form: fiction, poetry, memoir, biography, journalism, screenwriting, playwriting, young adult and children’s writing, graphic novel writing, traditional and experimental forms. Each year, we attempt to select excellent work across a range of genres, emphasizing diversity of technique and approach to writing among our fellows.

Application details may be found here. All applications are due by January 15th.

Measuring Progress

Twenty-seven thousand, five hundred—that’s my estimate for how many words I’ve written six months into my time at the WROB and nearing the halfway point of my fellowship. I’m not sure if that’s a little or a lot, but I know it doesn’t tell the whole story.

As a freelancer, I interact with word counts daily. I hit them. I miss them. I surpass one, and avoid another. I lament the existence of some, and crave the confines of others. I don’t believe word counts indicate completion of a project or literary merit, but they are often the tools we or editors use to tell us to “STOP” and move on to the next part of the process. Many of the words will never see the light of day. Does that mean they are wasted? The sum total of words does not make good writing, but I believe the act of writing more (more frequently, more words, even) can still indicate a type of headway in writing, especially if trial-and-error is your go-to expression of progress, as it is for me.

So what can I actually learn from those 27,500 words? It’s about half the length of a novel, but I don’t write those. For me the words don’t represent completion or perfection, but they do show movement.

For starters, the words I’ve written in the last six months belong to many projects, not one. Some are WFM (words for money), meaning I wrote them specifically for assignments unrelated to passion projects and creative interests. WFM are not to be confused with getting paid for the latter. They often feel uninspired, like a chore keeping me from playing outside with the other children. WFM can feel too easy or too difficult to write, and tangential to my true purpose. In reality, without the former, I can’t sustain the latter, not in any stress-free manner. I’m grateful for WFM and when they go missing, I desperately seek them out. Every so often, WFM can even trigger unforeseen passions, forcing me to acquire new skills or taking me somewhere unexpected in the best possible way. I have to believe that the WFM are also bringing me closer to writing better and more of the things I want to write.

For example, many of the WFM have sustained me while I focused on a single large creative piece over the last three months. In the end, more than half of the words I’ve written of the 27,500 belong to this long-form narrative nonfiction piece. If and when it comes out, it will be the longest thing I’ve ever published, so in that sense, a word count can show a kind of high-water mark for individual projects and WFM can also contribute to that progress.

This narrative of my word count is also shaped by what it leaves out. Not included in 27,500—the pitches I’ve written (yes, emails), the applications I’ve worked on, all those transcribed interviews, and the hours of research I’ve spent on all of these projects—passionate and WFM.

All of these words have one thing in common (other than their author)—I wrote them here, in the Writers’ Room. Whether they were for a combination of research, money, pleasure, or art, they were all welcomed with open armchairs into the silence of the Room. It conforms to my rituals and my ever-changing freelance schedule, supporting and sheltering these words, even when my other havens cafes and libraries have closed for the day. Unlike all of the other places I write, the Room has allowed me personal sovereignty in an environment of collective creativity.

The result has been words.

The fact that these words—good or bad—now exist, especially when there are large chunks of time when words are hard to come by, indicates progress. They are collectively working towards my life as a writer. So while the count of 27,500 words doesn’t tell the whole story, it does mean good things are happening here, and I’m looking forward to my next six months, and all the words to come.

 

—Gabriella Gage, 2018 WROB Fellow

Can Old Writing Learn New Tricks?

My first blog, which I started in 2007, was devoted to exploring and admiring free public libraries. I’m the child of these spaces, having grown up with family values centered on learning, self-determination, and play. Weekend trips to our local branch or to one of the further-off library networks adjacent to my Jersey Shore town set me on a path of life-long appreciation –not just for the beguiling contents, but also for the buildings themselves, the culture(s) of patron-hood, and intriguing off-shoots like book mobiles and card catalog fan-art.

Librarytour concluded in 2012 after 52 posts and 1 guest post, largely due to traveling less, having a backlog of unwritten reviews, and ambivalence about the blog’s core purpose. Skimming through posts recently, I felt underwhelmed–the word craft and my attempts at photography lacked a certain something. Remembering back, I recall struggling to establish the right tone. Many bloggers I admired had positioned themselves as experts or perhaps obsessed connoisseurs, but I set my sights on something different. I wanted to BE with libraries, to share a living sense of the mundane and the miraculous.

Canceling the blog didn’t mean I stopped visiting libraries, of course. Nor did I delete the account. I understand that some unmake their art as a path to transformation, but I tend toward shelving completed or abandoned projects and letting them ferment . . . for decades. Librarytour will remain at its original address until a new purpose is unearthed (hopefully), the Internet tanks (unlikely), I bite it and no one left behind is aware or cares that the blog exists (pretty likely), or some combination therein, which may or may not include serendipity and/or magic. Best case scenario? This old blog sparks newness in someone else with a matching or next-level love for free public libraries as a locus of literary, auditory, and digital arts, opportunity, culture, and DIY spirit, in whatever form that takes.

WordPress stats report the posts below as Librarytour’s all-time Top 3:

1 – Old Bridge Library – Master of Dedicated Spaces – New Jersey – July 3, 2010

“Old Bridge Library is lived-in and loved. The space is one large room organized by uses: Living Room, Children’s Room, Information Services, Senior Spaces, Teen Zone, etc. Each section is additionally separated into zones. For instance –in the Living Room one might fight to stay awake on couches in one area or, in another, relax in up-right armchairs, reading a magazine under a lamp. The Senior Space offered rocking chairs and computers with screens featuring increased magnification for eyes tired of trying to figure out tiny type.”

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2 – Somerville Library, I’ve got my eye on you – Massachusetts – March 7, 2008

“Well, I’m a big fan of bulletin boards, so I walked on back there to take a gander.  I noticed a brochure titled “So Fine A Prospect,” which turned out to be a walking tour of Prospect Hill and Union Square in Somerville, MA.  First on the list is the Somerville Central Library, located on Highland Avenue.”

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3 – Bibliotheque publique d’information –  Paris, France – June 10, 2010

“The Paris library Bibliotheque publique d’information is a big fish. A big, big, fish. I have never seen anything like it. As it has become my custom to visit a library nearly everywhere I travel, regardless of whether I can actually speak the language and read the books, my cousin and I braved the crowds at the bibliotheque.”

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Phoebe Sinclair, 2018 Ivan Gold Fellow

Abandoning the Mission

I make my way on the orange line to the State Street train station in hopes of heading to my sacred writing space. I enter the quiet room and I immerse myself into my work in hopes of getting further along in my writing project. It sounds like the perfect set up yet when the moment arrives I find myself stopped. For awhile I thought I was experiencing writer’s block, but it hasn’t been about a lack of things to write, I’ve been trying to determine the right thing to write. Many people would call this “THE CRITIC.” The inner voice that yells “your writing is terrible” before you even get the words out. The internal editor that stops you before you even utter a word. The small voice encouraging you to put off writing until a “genius” or “beautiful” passage is created.

This constant state of paralysis while writing has made me think of my childhood. I used to read free books that my family got from shelters and donation bins. We were living beneath the poverty line so, interestingly enough, I found myself with a ton of classics portraying worlds incredibly far from my own. I was reading “David Copperfield” or “Little Women” and falling in love with books more and more each day. I was so in love with them I tried to make my own. I wrote without worry about whether my plot made sense, or if my characters were developed, or if my line breaks were in the right spot. Somehow as I got more information about literature and the world of writing, my ability to be free while writing dwindled away.

One of the reasons I’ve always loved creating, whether it was a book, a dance or my own theater play with my siblings as actors, was because it was free. And not free in the commercial sense of the word, free in the sense that what I created was mine. It wasn’t under the influence of my future inner critic, the world of publishing or a commissioner. I could create to express, explore and connect.

It’s probably impossible for me to recreate the type of freedom I had as a child, yet I am challenging myself to write whatever is in my head. I am challenging myself to let my thoughts avalanche onto a page and make absolutely no sense. I am abandoning the “project” or the “mission.” I am challenging myself to fall in love with the joy of creating something. I am allowing myself to revel in that space, if only for a moment. Until my inner critic learns what’s going on and tells me to stop, so I can start the process all over again.

-Tatiana M.R. Johnson, 2018 WROB Gish Jen Fellow